About ME

Whoever dealt the cards when I was born, should have shuffled the deck a little longer and maybe the hand I was dealt would have not been so bad.  I was a burden to my mom and unloved by my dad.  My mom was only eighteen years old at the time. 

You know how the pain feels when you lose a loved one to death.  That is how I felt almost from the day I was born.  A deep darkness followed me; even on the days that I was happy.  The task of summing up the first thirty-six years of my life would be impossible.  It is excessively complicated.

By the time I was fourteen years old, I was stealing my mom’s car in the middle of the night to go for joy rides.  I started to sell marijuana as well as smoked it daily.  It did not take long before I was taking acid and smoking crack cocaine.  One time I did a needle of cocaine as well.   I remember a time that I use to complain that my mom drank too much alcohol and at fourteen years old, I became an alcoholic. From the time I was fourteen, every day was a party day. Between getting drunk and stoned, I still managed to graduate and hold a decent paying job.

At twenty-two years old, I decided that I could not live anymore.  I could not take the pain that I carried with me.  I felt as though nobody loved me and no one ever would.  My dad did not love me and wanted nothing to do with me.  If my own dad did not love me, why would another man?  If I was going to be messed up, depressed and alone all my life, then what was the point in living?

How does one just let go of the facts?  My own father never loved me or wanted anything to do with me.  My mother was too busy getting drunk to take care of me, so I had to take care of her, my little sister, and myself.  I was repeatedly sexually abused as a child, and raped as a teenager.  Instead of being a teenager, I played house for six years with an abusive older boyfriend.  My entire family is beyond dysfunctional.  Most people during their entire life time do not witness what I saw in the first twenty-two years of my life!  I did not belong in this screwed up place!

Although I do not recall a near death experience, I did die.  I was on life support for a few days until my body could function on its own.  I toned the drinking down for awhile after this incident but it did not take long before I was partying every day again.

In 1995, while I was in Vancouver, I came across a psychic and I was drawn to get a reading.  I had never done that before so I did not know what to expect. As soon as the psychic touched my hand, she looked at me and said, “You’re psychic.”  I replied with, “I know.  I do not know how to control it and I do not do anything with it.”

During the reading, she was blowing me away with what she was telling me.  She was telling me information that she definitely should not know about. There was only one thing that I thought that she was way off on.  She told me that I was going to write my first book by the time I was forty years old.  All I could think of when she said that was, yeah right lady!  I do not read books.  I was sure not going to write one!  I smoke pot, drink, and party!  Everything else she was dead on, except for that.  So I thought.

Living in the city proved to be too much after returning from a year long backpacking trip in South East Asia.  I moved to a small town called Hope in 2004.  I was still partying all the time but had a growing interest in the outdoors.  I started hiking, tandem sky diving, river rafting, canoeing, camping, and four wheeling every chance I had.

Although my life had been more than challenging, it had also been a barrel of fun!  I am very much young at heart and quite often see from the eyes of a child.  Let us just say that I know how to have fun.  I know how to turn boring, into unconventional fun!  There is a reason the kids like to hang out with "Auntie" Tanya.

In January of 2007, I went to Connecticut for work, and stayed in New York for the weekend.  I noticed a shop advertising psychic readings.  I decided to go inside and get a reading.  I honestly do not remember what the young woman told me other than she was extremely worried about me.  She said that she did not know why but she was very anxious around me and said that we could have other sessions to explore deeper.  I explained that I lived in Canada and was in New York on holiday.  She said that we could do it over the phone but I declined.

She seemed very worried about me for some reason but for all I knew it could just be a scam for me to pay more money for more sessions.  Before leaving, she urged me to buy a couple of crystal quartz points and asked me to keep them in my purse or with me at all times.  She also told me not to tell anyone that I had them.  I do not know why but I did buy the quartz points and left the shop rather confused.  I guess only time would tell if something crazy was going to happen to me.  Little did I know at the time, five months down the road, life as I knew it, would be no more.

At age thirty-five, I experienced a dirt bike accident that left the doctors puzzled and unable to relieve me of the pain that I experienced daily, due to a stuck bent leg.  A year after my accident while trying to cope with being disabled and unable to function without daily help, suicide seemed the only option.  

After embarking on a journey in Sedona, Arizona, I came back full of life and in a state so blissful it was almost too much to handle.  After discovering something phenomenal was happening to me, I embarked on another journey to put the pieces together of why I was so different from everyone else.   Mystical Puzzle is the result of the unfolding process of finding out who I am.  Much of it was written in the two and a half years immediately following my dirt bike accident.  

In 2013, I completed my studies at the University of Metaphysical Sciences earning a Doctoral Degree.   I also received Ministerial Ordination and Practitioner's Certificate.  During my studies, I completed Reiki Level 1 & 2.  My passion is to learn as much as I can about the unknown.  Not only to understand my own experiences but to help others with theirs.  I have been inspired by many spiritual teachers and various religious teachings but I do not follow one in particular.  

I currently reside in South West British Columbia, Canada.

Tanya Ebert